what if i died?

What if I was to die and not be able to say goodbye?
Will you notice me?
Its hard enough trying to leave you,
but harder to accept the fact that your not here with me.
The pain that you caused me to go through, did you see me suffering?
I tried calling your name but nothing came out.
I think about you each time someone calls your name.
But do you think about me?
Questions race through my mind as i dream of you.
Is all that we had really nothing to you?

not the one

I’ve counted the days, months, years
and so on of how long I’ve met you.
You were like my angel
the one I can count on,
or at least I thought.
You made me happy,
and brought a smile to my face each time I heard your voice.
I hid my feelings so that we can still be friends with no benefits.
or at least try.
The truth of us is unfolding right in front of me.
Is this that hard to believe?
All we had were lies?
I wanted to see the real you,
but i guess that won’t happen.
I believed everything you said from the start to finish,
and i didn’t care what others said.
I thought that you’ve given me hopes and dreams,
but i learn that i couldn’t count on you.
even though i wanted to so much.
It hurts