School is is now torture

im sooo tired lately. im happy that im back from spring break, but sooo much work to do. i have a book report due in less than a week andd i havent finished reading the book. im kind failing algebra :(. so i needa bust my A$$ for that class now. and french is a pain. most of the students in my class fail the IPC MOCK taks test. and i think that one of the students is me. i slacked off a lot last semester. this semester, in working my behind off so i can pass. my english teacher gives me TOO MUCH HW! im sleeping less and less each day to try and finish my hw. OH YEAH! and finals are at the end of april! so that means no more procrastinating. just a week ago, i was pretty much free every saturday from now til school ends. this sucks. i have no actual free time for myself anymore.

my life as it is

so i was thinking about the people in my life. then i realized how much itll hurt me to loose those people. its not easy to let go of something special. everyone that came into my life made a difference. there is a place for each and everyone of them in my heart. before school started in August of 2008, i didnt want to go to the school that im currently attending. i kept making excuses of why i dont want to go there. there was alot of bad things happening there. (as i was told) ngl. i was scared just going through the doors. first month went by and i was still scared. i didnt know anyone there. my friends from middle school and i grew apart from each other. each day went by, and we soon stopped seeing each other. my life changed ever since then. i wasnt seen as a little girl anymore. i was seen as an adult at a young age.(at least i think) but that didnt stop me. the next month i began to open up to people. i met new people and they changed my life. i was always that shy little girl in the corner scared to speak up for myself. now im confident in myself and isnt afraid of the outside world. when i think back about the past, i realize how much fun i had. and how i want to go back to my old life. but at the same time. im enjoying my life as it is right now. the people around me made it possible for me. even if they came for a little, and left suddenly, they are still in my heart and always will be. you all mean the world to me. and ill never forget you.